Moments of Important Unimportance

Last night was just a blast in the ass-t

Wed, 16 Jan 2013 19:36:27 -0500

Last night was just a blast in the ass-t

‘Are you alright?’ No, I’m not alright I’m pissed off at you right now....

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 00:14:23 -0500

‘Are you alright?’
No, I’m not alright
I’m pissed off at you right now.
I’m pissed off that you said “you’d fuck her so hard”. I’m pissed off that you liked her picture because I know how you think of her. I’m pissed off at a lot of the things you say, because you just fucking annoy me lately. I’m pissed off that you’re always fucking around me and texting me and wanting to be with me when I don’t feel the same fucking way and sometimes I just want some of my own air to breathe, thank you
I’m also pissed that my mom and dad continue to ignore me when they know what’s going on, how my sister, my rock, can’t find anytime to spend with me because she’s too fucking busy with her best friend
I’m pissed that I basically hate everyone at school and I have no real friends there and I’m pissed that school is just torture now and they’re stupid fucking idiot bimbos
And I’m pissed that I fucking look the way I do, because I’m fucking fat, fucking disgusting and lazy (words of my sister) and fucking ugly, and I’m also stuck in a rut with this cough and my stomach hurting and my sleep schedules off and I’m on my fucking period
HOORAY FOR CATHERINE’S LIFE

I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone.. I fucking hate my life right now I’m a...

Sun, 30 Dec 2012 02:40:57 -0500

I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone..
I fucking hate my life right now
I’m a fucking bitch.

I’m so fucking annoyed John is fucking pissing me off, I don’t know how much longer...

Fri, 28 Dec 2012 19:53:43 -0500

I’m so fucking annoyed
John is fucking pissing me off, I don’t know how much longer that’s gonna last
Tori is a fucking imbecile and OMG why are there no people on this earth that I like
Cristine is literally my best friend and I don’t get to see her often, I really fucking wish we went to the same school

God. People are just fucking irritating

Can I please just get out of this school full of fake girls who only care about the stupidest fucking shit
Ugh.
I hate this year

I haven’t cut in one month -you go, cat coco

Fri, 28 Dec 2012 04:27:45 -0500

I haven’t cut in one month

-you go, cat coco

12/27/12 marks the day I lost my smoking virginity :D

Thu, 27 Dec 2012 23:58:30 -0500

12/27/12 marks the day I lost my smoking virginity
:D

I don’t even fucking know anymore It really scares me...

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 19:06:09 -0500

I don’t even fucking know anymore
It really scares me when people get attached really fast and they’ve got serious problems

What sounds good today: -Clean my room -Read a book -Smoke a black&mild

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 14:58:01 -0500

What sounds good today:
-Clean my room
-Read a book
-Smoke a black&mild

I miss you. I miss you so much. So much.. So fucking much I’m crying because of how much I...

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 00:37:20 -0500

I miss you. I miss you so much. So much.. So fucking much
I’m crying because of how much I miss you

Idk. When I saw a picture of you
I was kinda stunned, it’d been so long I guess.. I imagined what it’d be like to be hugged by you again

Tomorrow was gonna be our 1 year ‘wedding’ anniversary
I wonder if you’d thought about that

To eat; or not to eat To smoke; or not to smoke Both so close I think I might go with food I...

Mon, 24 Dec 2012 00:42:47 -0500

To eat; or not to eat
To smoke; or not to smoke

Both so close

I think I might go with food
I really wish we had cold chocolate peanut butter balls

Today I went back to that place in Barnes and Noble, played some songs of ours and looked at our...

Mon, 24 Dec 2012 00:24:52 -0500

Today I went back to that place in Barnes and Noble, played some songs of ours and looked at our pictures.. I also saw someone who had your eyes, they were sad
I never stopped thinking that your eyes are the kindest I’ve seen.. They are

I can’t stop thinking about you..

Fri, 21 Dec 2012 05:41:13 -0500

I can’t stop thinking about you..

I can’t deal with this anymore I hate when people start to really depend on me because I...

Wed, 19 Dec 2012 00:02:31 -0500

I can’t deal with this anymore
I hate when people start to really depend on me because I can’t always guarantee ill be there all the time or forever

I believe you can truly care about someone, but when they’re bringing you down you really have to take care of yourself

Call that selfish, but it’s important for people to realise
You’re important and no person, no matter how much you may like or love them, should be worth losing your happiness

Because being around everything that he’s bringing is making me sad and it’s really taken a lot out of me
And I don’t know how much longer I can hang on, no matter how much I want to

Being in a relationship with someone with the same problems as you is really fucking difficult and...

Mon, 17 Dec 2012 22:25:08 -0500

Being in a relationship with someone with the same problems as you is really fucking difficult and I’m beginning to think; impossible.

Cutting, self hate, suicide, depression

It has surrounded me for the past 2 years and I’m not sure how much more I can take of it

I get that we’ve gone our separate ways for now, but what bothers me is this; I know that you...

Fri, 14 Dec 2012 00:46:40 -0500

I get that we’ve gone our separate ways for now, but what bothers me is this; I know that you loved me, but the way things left off and the things you said make me feel like you never believed that I loved you
And I did, I truly fucking did

And I still care about you an insane amount

I just hope you can come to believe me

I really don’t want the scar this one is going to leave...

Mon, 19 Nov 2012 18:53:44 -0500

I really don’t want the scar this one is going to leave

Day 2

What’s better on a Saturday night? Fucking relapse. Sorry in...

Sun, 18 Nov 2012 13:57:19 -0500

What’s better on a Saturday night?
Fucking relapse.

Sorry in advance if this too gory, but whatevs, it’s my blog and I want to remember this

Olivia and I :)

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 18:48:07 -0400

Olivia and I :)

3rd day I believee

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 18:46:59 -0400

3rd day I believee

Absolutely fucking adore my red Toms

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 18:45:06 -0400

Absolutely fucking adore my red Toms